Loss of Hope...

Assalammuailaikum...
   Alhamdulilah...


Hope and dreams...


I never experience failure before..,
I never ever feel the grief depressions before..,
And i never ever think that i will come to this situation...


yes, This is the first time that i feel a sudden drop in my life...
On 26th of April, while taking my break... I was so freaked out to know about my Muet result..
I was hesitated to know it..
But before i open the message..
I just smiled and said to myself..
HAVE FAITH IN ALLAH...


Then i opened..it just to find out that I got only Band 3.. only 4 marks left for Band 4...
Frustrating isn't it ??
I just dropped on that moment..
I couldn't hold back my tears...
On that silence crew room...
I shed my tears..
Mourning for my failure...
I texted my parents.. asking for their forgiveness for letting them down,.
But they said.. Its okay..
Just take another course..
When I'm trying to put myself together..
Something happened..
Mawi's song were played on the radio that time..
"Sujud"


Some of the lyrics were
Bila dilanda musibah.. hati mudah gundah..
Jangan biarkan dugaan musnahkan pendoman hidup..


Can you believe.. at that moment.. that song were played..
Allah try to sooth me...
He's giving me a sign..
not to give up... And He's knows better...
He try to cheer me up..
How Merciful...


Oh Allah...
how great Your love towards me and yet i'm still not a good servant to You..


Even on my home,
I listened to Maher zain's song...
"I Believe"


I cried once again..
Letting go all the pain that I endured in my chest..


I didn't pay any attention to people around me..
Its like .. I'm just talking to Allah only..
 When i reached home.., I saw me nephews playing around and suprisingly I just smiled..
Allah gave me another reasons to be happy..


My family...,
They support me..
Even though i might not get to be a lawyer..


But still.. without law..
Its like.. I lost part of me..
I don't even know .. who i am anymore..
Its like a huge hole has been punched into my chest...




Only Allah knows how i feel deep inside of me...


I'm not giving up...
I know someday i will learn law..
maybe I'm not gonna be lawyer, public prosecutor or a judge...
But I PROMISE TO MYSELF that I will possess a degree in law..or anything about law
Even it takes years...


Insyaalah..
Oh Allah..

my first ever mooting (lawyer wannabe.. hehe) and epic night

Assalammuailaikum..

   Alhamdulilah.. i have finished the foundation..and now up to five months of holiday !

But before that, i want to blog about two incredible things that happened on the same day..! (25/2/2012)

                                             

                                           MOOTING+DINNER=SPECTACULAR !

The mooting started first in the morning.., i was the Senior Counsel and along with my Junior counsels representing the government as the public prosecutor.. My junior counsels was the awesome Edlina , Bella , Michelle and Filzah .. It was about drug case and the respondent team members were Ryan , Munir , Mus , Niesa and Zaharah..

   At first, we were FREAKING nervous because we have to present our case in front of the judge and in the moot court.. And the judge was the most lovable yet fierce Madam Nazida..

   But alhamdulilah.. it all went well.. we got to feel how its feel to become a lawyer and defend your client in court.. :)

So here some pictures for this legendary day,

This was before the mooting, we waited for our bay lief Syafiqah

this is us. 

Criminal case team !

The bay lief and  interpretor 

 Public Prosecutor V Respondent 

And at night.. DINNER TIME..!

It was a great night.. and it was held at Concorde. The food, atmosphere and performance was superb..

Malas nk cerita banyak tengok jela gambar2 ni..

owh yeah.. and the team was night in Paris

Nevertheless, it was one of the bet memories in my 19teen ..

Owh yeah.. i have turned 19.. can u believe it.. this year is my last teen.. next year will be 20..

God.. time flies really fast..

:)

Engagement and of course marriage..

 Assalammuailaikum..
      Yo ! its been a while since i updated this blog..

Dusty much ! Anyway its almost a month that i started my second semester and Alhamdulilah its been great..

I have to face a lot of challenges in this new semester... New assignment and of course new drama !

Nevertheless , Insyaalah.. with the help of Allah i will get through it to pursue my dream in the legal field !

owh yeah, i never did mentioned that i'm taking law courses.. Well i am, i dont know why but i really do love

law.. I have the passion for it.. and i'm grateful for that.. Its a common thing, that is do the thing that you like.

. thing that make your heart ponder every time you do it.. That's me when i'm studying about law... :)


      Anyway, i'm running of topic am i ? what is the title above and law thing have to do with each other ?

Okay.. i'm moving in to my real topic here... Recently like yesterday, my older brother just got engaged to

some girl.. Hmmmm.. Daaaaaaaaaaa.. of course la girl.. my brother is not a gay ok ! He's just 21.. and now

he's getting engaged ? Man ..that's early ! To me it is early.. especially in this modern world nowadays..

Personally, i didn't think that engagement is a big deal well.. its only an engagement not marriage ! So i didn't

really take part in all the planning and decoration of "barang  hantaran" etc... Plus i even wanted to go back

 home on Saturday but my mother wont allowed it.. because she said " Its your bro's engagement you know !

  Dont you have to help with something ?" Help what ?? I mean i know i have to help with feast and all that ..

Come on that's not a new thing to me... Anyway.. as i said an engagement is not really a big deal for me.. In

islam also didn't mentioned about engagement.. its only a malay custom.. And in Islam is not proper to be

engaged with someone for too long... It can lead to many kind of bad thing..

    Let me tell you about the chaotic day of yesterday.. As my brother is the oldest and as he is the ONLY

SON in my family.. All of my relatives came to help out thiss "BIG" event.. Even my grandmother, She came

all the way from Bahau for this occasions .. I really appreciate that.. I missed her too... The event started after

zohor.. around 2'o'clock or something... We went to my future sister in-law's house by car.. (Daaaaaaaa) Its

like a convo.. because we went there with nine cars.. All of my relatives joined.. It was cool...

   As we reached there, my brother stayed in the car for in engagement the groom are not necessary to come in.. After the old people talk.. They've decided to hold the engagement for one year.. and after that insyaalah marriage..is on their way...

Here are some picture from yesterday event..

Sarung cincin time !

These are the hantaran.. the purple one are from the man's side while the white is from the lady's side..

Here.., My big bro with someone that i will call Kakak someday.. Insyaalah..

Deep down in my heart i gotta admit that I really glad.. that my brother got engaged.. Its shows that he's really  sincere to her.. Proud of him ! After that, a lot of my friends asked me .. when would be time that i will get engaged.. wanna know my answer ? I said NEVER for i think engagement is a waste of money, time and stressful.. I'm not looking forward for an engagement.. i'm looking for a stronger bond.. the one that cannot be broken easily.. MARRIAGE .. freak out yet ? 

Engagement.. they said that is a like a booking ticket to that particular woman.. Its like that woman is on the way to be married to someone,.. In simple language.. COP THAT woman..so that no other guy can have her.. To me.. that's just not true for your life mate or soul mate is determined by ALLAH.. If you were meant to be with someone .. You wont need any engagement , That someone will be yours for sure.. And if its not.. It will never be.. and never meant to be.. So that's why i'm little bias about this engagement thing. ..

Owh yeah.. i've been thinking.. my marriage, there wouldn't be any "persandingan" or what so ever.. because in my opinion .. marriage is not about the clothes , venue or expensive souvenier.. its just an "akad nikah" . Its just one simple and yet powerful sentence that your future hubby will say on that special day of yours.. In fact, i think i'm gonna get married in Tok Kadi's office.. much more simple.. and save budget and less pressure..

Pressure..., I mean .. the wedding planning, what to wear ? where's the venue ? And a lot relative's will nag if anything is not according to place.. Man.. that'll be torture.. Dont you think that wedding should be the time to be happy and stress free ? Well i am.. so that'smy opinion.. Like in secret garden movie.. the hero and heroin got married in a Marriage Department only.., no fancy dress, or expensive food.. Just that.. and yet  they lived happily.. maybe its just a drama but i wanted like that.. Insyaalah... :)

               

my cherry pie

                 Assalammuailaikum.... Meooowwww !!!

                 Hehehe...today i'm gonna blog about cats but not just any cats BUT MY CATS .. Frankly speaking, i never like cats before..i mean i always adore their cuteness but never really in love with cats or any other animals... Which mean i'm in my on world...For example, My best friend NORASHIKIN .., she has  cats and lots of it..! So she usually talks about her cats  all the time...and as a good friend, i will pretend to have interest in what she's saying..(hey she's my BFF ! of course i will listen to her..hehe ) anyway, She's always talk about her cats Mella, Okie and etc... Back then i didn't show any interest on pets..for i think its kind of fussy to take care something else besides yourself PLUS my mom wont allow it..

             A miracle happen, suddenly i feel a connection or a bond...hmmm maybe a sign ..no no...the sign word is just too big..haha... A feeling yeah, a feeling to nurture a pet..So on 18th NOV 2010, like two days before SPM .. i welcomed two kitties into my life.. EDWARD & BELLA <3 <3

this is EDWARD..i love him so muchie..! but he ran away one night and until now still missing :(

This is my BELLA...she is so lazy and 24 7 asleep...

p/s yes these are the names of character in TWILIGHT..and yes I LOVE TWILIGHT !

Anyway, i don't have just two cats minus one but i have four more kittens..

PLEASE WELCOME :

LULU

E.J

MUEZA

JI HOO

After Edward gone missing, i was terribly devastated .. i looked and searched for him everywhere, praying and hoping that he will come back but he didn't :(

Nevertheless, Allah will NEVER disappoint HIS slave..He take Edward from me but give me FOUR little cute KITTENS in return... yes Bella got pregnant.

So on 2nd of April 2011..Bella gave birth to adorable kittens..!

and of course i was the midwife..!

Bella started to have labor pain at 6 am in the morning, and for sure i was freak out because i didn't know what to do ( HELLO ! giving birth here ! ) I was scared and of course Bella was scared too.. She wanted me to hold her in my laps..and just rubbing her stomach.. Out of no where..her "Amniotic sac"  ( air ketuban der!)

burst and my clothe got wet because of that liquid.. Then came the FIRST KITTEN 

LULU

Lulu, the name given for well i kind a like that name (daaa...) Unfortunately, my time with Lulu doesn't last long for she died during last Ramadan because of malfunction medicine :( I still fell her lost, every time i hear someone talk about her, i feel my heart has stops beating for a while and that pain in my chest started to come again.. I miss her so much...

:( 

Second is..E.J

E.J short for Edward Junior..is a replacement for Edward because he looks alike his father.

Very adorable and pamper.

Third, Mueza

Mueza or i like to call him..LITTLE DEVIL..

He is always looking for stuff to wreck and His voice is so loud especially if He's hungry !!

Owh yeah, Mueza is an arabic name, Rasululah s.a.w used to have a cat name Mueza also :)

Lastly, Ji Hoo

Ji Hoo, is a guy name.. i gave her the name because at first i thought she was a male cat and she is white like snow...So Ji Hoo..is a character names in Korean drama, at Korea have snow and every time i see Ji Hoo..its remind me of snow so thats why i named her as Ji hoo..

very flexible and fierce !

The conclusion is ..you have to give a chance to love something.. i did it and now 

I AM AN ANIMAL LOVER !!

     

eat,eat & eat...

Assalammuailaikum....

        Alhamdulilah...i still been given a chance to write this blog..which mean that i'm still alive ( syukur moment !)
thanks Allah....By the way, i have already started my second semester last 21th nov ago. New semester means new thing, new courses, new spirit, NEW ROOM, NEW FLOOR, and new roomates ...

      Why did i highlighted the NEW ROOM and NEW FLOOR because now i'm staying on THE SECOND FLOOR !! Ya Allah...i've been 'upgraded' to upstair..( ni la padah nye tak aktif kolej !) Well..looking at the bright side.., my muscle, tendon and all body part will be active once again...Plus..i got a new ROOMIES !!
Their names are Fatin Shahirah and Fazrina Edora...they are so sweet, and so nice..:) we call it the F"s room for our name start with F...:)

          Anyway, back to the main title up there...EAT, EAT & EAT.... I LOVE to EAT !! to me food is another joy of life! i really love eating ! and my body is also showing the impact of what i love to do..( weight gained!!)

        So last two weeks if i'm not mistaken, i went out with my buddies, FATIMA AND FAIZ..we went to times square..to shop a little before we headed back to universities... I bought an umbrella, a cute hello kitty sweater and a black dress (is it necessary to tell people of what u bought?) hehehe..
    Anyway, we had our stomach filled with Vivo's for lunch .
 i had a history there, A BAD ONE the last time i was there, the service was slow..i mean freakin SLOW !! we didn't get our food in time and it was like chaos over there..maybe their oven broke down or something.  

     But that day , the service was excellent , tip top la...! Fast and efficient they might say.. I had the second best chicken chop next to BLACK CANYON restaurant ...it was delicious and so was the price... But never mind..the price suits the food though..:)

these are my buddies !

salad...they put too much salt in it :(

me !!

this is what faiz was having..

so eager to eat ..haha

and this is what fatima and i was having..we ordered the same thing..:)

Love, Amor , pag-ibig, cinta ,tình yêu

Assalammuailaikum..

hei...

      Alhamdulilah, i finally got my result...and i was shocked at first because i never knew that i would scored that kind of result...Well you see, during my exammination week..i didnt really studied like i used to..i was fooling around...so when the result was just around the corner..i was FREAKIN nervous and of course SCARED !!!!

        Overall, thanks to Allah..i did managed to scored it...thank you so much YA ALLAH..:)

I LOVE YOU !!!

 3 simple words..., easy to say..but not entirely meaningful for SOME people...

i mean..what is love anyway ? do you guys even know what love is?

i bet you guys cant even describe love fully..neither do i..

Well..to me..i am a love stories freak !

i mean it...i cannot read or watch any romance story otherwise i will get addicted with them..FAST..

Every novels or love stories that i watched or read..it will took me at least one  month to get it over !

I will sometimes remember back the stories , their lines, their characters..etc..

( addicted much !!)

Anyway.., my point is..a lot of people out there.., fell for the idea of love but not the love itself...

They assume that love is sweet, love makes world a better place, when they're in love nothing can go wrong ..

and...all that lovey doovey stuff la..~

But the thing is..love can also be hurtful and love can make you do something stupid..I mean..there is a lot of teenagers these days that are willing to do such stupid, idiotic things for their unworthy so called LOVE..

I mean...thats my point..they are in love with the idea of love..

In real life..that kind of TRULY romance stuff RARELY happen...

to me ( fatin nuratiqah's honest opinion ) 

Love is when you love someone without reasons,

That someone makes you feel  closer to Allah,

You feel that you are meant to be with him or her..,

She is your Hawa and He is your Adam..

Let Allah..plan for you..your soulmate..

and when the times come..

dont worry..

you'll find her or him...

positive thoughts vs negative thoughts.

       Assalammuailaikum..
Hye !!
        My second post..wow..and its only take me..well almost one month to post it..(lazy much !) huhuhu...
I'm such a lazy bump..! (have the guts to admit it!) ...Well by judging to the headlines..up there..i've got an "inspiration"to post about "POSITIVE THOUGHTS vs NEGATIVE THOUGHTS"
     
        Different people different thoughts , I mean even girls or boys dont look alike..they have different kind of hair , different kind of nose shape and etc....If the physical part that the one you can see are already different..imagine the part that you cant see...(out of context lak !) So coming back to the main topic..there is a lot of people outside there (including me!) have their owns opinion..I just dont really get it why some people prefer to think negatively when they can think positively...Well you guys might says " SUKA HATI AKU LA..MULUT AKU !"  well...i didn't say you guys cannot do that even Article 10 of Federal Constitution guarantees your freedom of speech..

To make it simple...i have put out some situation..for you guys to understand more :)

p/s i wrote the PT and NT in malay..because to make it more appealing...ehehehe

Situation one 1 :
You saw a boy or a girl that you DONT LIKE helping an old person. Your reaction ?
 PT: Alhamdulilah baik jugak die tolong orang lain ....
NT : ala ! berlagak la kau !! tunjuk baik je lebih tapi haram jadah tak !

Situation 2:
You met a boy or a girl talking fully in English. Your reaction ?
PT:  Wow...die mesti nak fasihkan english sebab tu die cakap English..
NT: Bajet la die ni ! nak cakap orang putih konon ! berlagak je !

Situation 3:
You are been given a challenge For exampla TONS OF ASSIGNMENTS..Your reaction ?
PT: Insyaalah aku boleh siapkan...!
NT : Mampuslah..berlambak giler !! Pe kejadah Lecturer ni???

See my point????
I mean come on man ! widen up your mind ! think positive ! it wont kill you okay..in fact it will make you a better person and so do i...:) Trust me you will achieve more if you always think positive..
Insyallah..
that is all...
:)